snot in or around my face

This is utterly fucking ridiculous. I'm sitting here in the computer lab trying not to fall asleep. I feel like butt! I have two and a half hours before my class starts. I really should be in bed but I can't miss anymore classes without my scholastic career turning into a shitstorm. Fuck my life.

I just took my psych exam. Ha ha ha ha ha. Yeah I'm almost positive I failed it. Super awesome! Thanks illness! Well, I probably could have taken it on Wednesday but to be honest I probably wouldn't have studied anyway. "Might as well get this shit over with!" Were my exact words to the girl I sit next too. She laughed. I didn't clarify that I wasn't kidding, who cares?

I miss Satan. Sniff! I really do. I haven't seen her in like over a week. This weekend is Halloween and we both sort of agreed that we wouldn't be dressing up so I'm not sure exactly what we're going to do. Friday is my night, as clarified by Troy, so I'm sort of curious to see what we end up doing. We always have fun, and I refuse to be fucking sick this weekend. I FUCKING REFUSE! I will not spend the entire weekend in bed again. I WILL NOT! Oof. I'm getting myself worked up for no reason. I do have an awesome costume idear if she decides we should dress up though. I wont spoil it, but if it doesn't work out then maybe I'll save it for next year.

On a different note I've been being sick stalked by Bryan. He knows I'm sick and wont leave me alone. He's called twice a day for the past four days. I haven't really answered because I even sound like ass and my throat hurts, but he's fucking determined. He has text constantly too. I think he feels like this is the only time I would ever reply because I'm not busy. I told him I was going to work and school today. He actually had the nerve to tell me he didn't think it was a good idea. Ok, Mom. Jesus Henry.

John called me a few times, I've decided to just take it one day at a time with him. I'm not actively seeking him out but I'm not cutting him out when he calls me. We'll never be as close as we were once but I'm a coward and can't cut people out. I think it's because I'm a Gemini. Or something. I talked to Josh about it and he agreed that I should give him another chance. Very big of him considering that they aren't even talking. Whatever, boys are dumb.

I've sat here for the past three minutes looking at my finger. Yeah, I'm the picture of health. Gag. I'm hot and cold. If I get sick again and or worse than I am now because I'm not in bed - I'll probably just kill myself. Crossing fingers that doesn't happen.

So I've cut my wait time to two hours and fifteen minutes. Stupid post.

Peace!